Friends

I love my friends and they are a great blessings to me in my life, I wouldn't know what I would do without my friends in my life. I sometimes depend on them to help me or do things with me because My Mom doesn't have time for me. The reason my sister and I have to depend on people so much because we can't drive or ride a bike. Sometimes we even feel sorry for ourselves by saying life is not fair for us and we don't have lives especially my sister. So if no one can do anything with us, then we usually just stay at hame with nothing to do except eat, watch TV, listen to music, play on the computer, and do scrapbooks. I have to really clean my room, but who want's to do that? Sometimes I just want to get out of the house for a while and do someting fun, like visit friends or have a pic-nic in the park or go shopping. At times I would really love to do those thing with my Mom or Dad but they are always too busy for me, their own daughter. I know they say when life get you down, you need to count your blessings and every dought will fly, but sometimes that's so hard when you are feeling sad.

I have a couple of website I like to go to, they are: www.cdbaby.com/all/ewailer, http://www.soundclick.com/bands/9/ellishadlockmusic.htm that's my friend music sites, check Ellis's music out, if you listen to his samples or a couple of his songs then you will want to buy them. And www.kzion.com is an LDS station on the internet with some cool music. My friend and I say: KZION ROCK!! Ü

We love it when our friends can spend time with us: talk and listen to us and do things with us like go shopping or play a game with us. The one thing I like my friends doing with me is doing scrapbooks together and showing me how to make cool ones. Right now I have a few scrapbooks going. I aways like new idea on how to make my scrapbook look more cooler, I have a few books on scrapbooking but I just don't understand what the books are saying, but I would like to do them if I know how to do it and if I know what they are saying. My problem is I don't understand directions, and that can be very frustrating!

The one thing that my Grandma "my Dad's mom" always said to me that, I have a good mind and I think she's right, she said I look around the world (by watching TV/movies and listen to other people) and I know what's going on in the world by listening, even if I just stay at home. She also said that, that's probably one of Heavenly Father's gifts to me. Because I don't have much in life to hope for.

I am also trying to get my Personal Progress done but it's so frustrating too because my Mom won't help me and again I have to depend on my friends to help me but they are so busy too with work and their own families. The reason why my Mom won't help me becase I am not in young womens, I missed my chance because of my Dad and I just want my chance now. Can't my Mom understand that? I also been trying to work on it for 7 years, I feel like I would have it done by now if people just HELP me!! My Mom always say move on in life, but how? I can't do anything.

I feel like all my hopes, dreams, and plans always fall though. Sometimes I feel down and nothing matters anymore and I get so depressed.